#18: Ok so that was a hiatus

Hello friends. It has been so long. In June, I felt my bandwidth was too full to write a newsletter. By July I was questioning if I had anything worthwhile to share. But I know that the longer I wait, the harder it will be to write again. So I'm here, sending you not my best newsletter but the most needed. 

I hope your summer is going well. Mine is nothing special. I didn't go on holiday or get sunburnt. I've been leading my simple boring life - just how I like it. I have nothing to show for the internal changes, which I feel are many. Tectonic plates are shifting, sometimes bringing up lava and stuff. Well, there's something. I dyed my hair after years of thinking about it. I am a shade of ginger that is already fading. It's not much, but it's not blonde. I don't want to be blonde for a while. 

These can stay blonde

A few days ago marked my two-year anniversary of living in the UK. I don't know why it's taking me so long to feel at home here. It’s… not sticking. I'm like a plant propagation that went wrong. More metaphors! My photographs are equally confusing. They don't know what they want to be. I let them be. I have faith it's just something I have to go through. The spark will come back. Right? :~)

More fluffy things

A few months ago I transitioned from online video calls to in-person therapy sessions. It was my therapist’s idea. I was hesitant and said no a few times, until she caught me on a day I was brave. It felt like starting therapy all over again. I now enjoy the whole process, in part because the office is five minutes away from the botanical garden. After our chat, I take a walk and make pictures.

We should catch up on some things:

• I did an interview about Dear Padua on Lensculture. Thankful for Wesley who posed the most thoughtful questions. He also writes an excellent newsletter about photography.

• I now know the answer to the question "what's your favourite movie?". It’s Everything Everywhere All at Once. It moved something in me.

• Emma Chamberlain is, like, my best friend. I don’t know what took me so long to watch her videos.

• I’ve been listening to music from the ‘80s unironically. What a Strange Thing.

• currently watching, and loving, and feeling like crying to Pachinko on Apple TV+.

And my links across the internet, like horcruxes, are:

• Twitter. Where I am shy and self-conscious. Occasionally, after I drink kumquat tea, I am also funny. I mostly post photos.

• Foundation. Where I still do the NFT thing you people hate.

• Desire Path. Where I put together a newsletter with plenty of Jpgs.

• Instagram, but it’s kind of ded.

Bouquet doesn’t have a schedule anymore but I'll continue being in your inbox if you want me to be. Missed you!

ok bye